DEAR DIARY: SO FAR
These past few weeks have been quite hectic, it sometimes feels like I’m biting off more than I can chew. I stare at the board in my room and all I see are to do lists , the academic year is ending soon and just like yesterday it would soon be over. I still haven’t completed some essays and I have my dissertation to write but I have a couple of months to complete that. So what have I learnt this week? A whole lot. I would start with the most recent, I learnt the value of networking. I consider myself partially an introvert even though I’m quite outspoken. I was assessing my relationships a couple of months back and I realised that I had no new friends, sounds off but I figured I didn’t know anyone new, besides the colleagues turned compulsory friends. I hardly go out purely because i’m often swamped with work, but then again I figured you don’t necessarily need to go out to make new friends or meet people. God has blessed me with this platform called the media and I have met amazing, talented and inspiring people through this blog and other media outlets. I made a conscious effort to reach out more, be more responsive to people and also make valuable friendships . This week I got so many favours just through people. I learnt that Networking is the currency of this generation, you’d be surprised by what you give and get.
I started my own business last month and I thank God, so far he’s been too faithful. I experienced so much throughout the process of setting it up, but my testimonies are for another day. All I can say is ‘God is good’. He provided all my financial needs and placed wonderful people in my life to facilitate the process. I’m currently retailing in Nigeria and U.K, but I can’t be in two places at once. God blessed me with a support system in Nigeria who handles deliveries and take orders. The best part is that it came at no cost. The products were also launched when various major online retailers were doing commission free merchant offers, so I get to list them to a larger audience at no cost. I needed help with publicity and he provided, fellow bloggers have been awesome, those that even charge for Ads offered to do it free for me. I can go on and on about how God has been faithful this past month, but I’d leave it at this; “when God gives a vision, he makes provision”.
At the end of last year, 31st december to be precise, I asked God for a couple of things, I asked him for humility, wisdom and grace to touch lives. I prayed for humility because I knew it was something I desperately needed and would need. Many feel its until you are cocky or outwardly egoistic before you are proud. But there is a form of pride that dwells solely in the heart, and probably one only you and God know about. Its one that makes you think inwardly “its my time, I am great, I’m bigger than that, I’m better than him/her”. You may not agree but even if it dwells in the faintest and subconscious part of your heart, its pride.
Romans 12:3 says “For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you”
There are so many scriptures on pride, and pride comes in various faint forms. I’d list a few you may be able to relate with.
- When your gifts begin to give an air of pride (e.g I’m really good at this, I can do better than that person, if they need help in this field I’d be the first person they’d summon)
- When the world’s love for you causes you to lift your head in pride( When you do things that people value/cherish, and you are appreciated for it, their approval and love can be a trigger of pride, self glorification).
- Spiritual exposure: this is somewhat ironic, sometimes our knowledge/Insight of the scripture/word of God can cause pride. Many men of God have fallen prey to this.
- Physical attributes: ( many ladies struggle with this, beauty or physique is a thing that many adore, and those whom theirs are acknowledged can unconsciously be “full of it”) proverbs 31:30 says Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
As long as we’re on earth and we keep doing better, pride is a tool the devil may want to use to trap us, But by God’s grace we’d overcome. I have so much to write and share, but also I have a lot to learn. I feel what held me back in the past was my inability to acknowledge my areas of growth, that false sense of perfection that many of us unconsciously possess is a killer. Ecclesiastes 7:16 says “Be not overly righteous, and do not make yourself too wise. Why should you destroy yourself?”. I pray to God that as we grow in his word, our heart receives, and our character reflects christ.
Dear diary, In other news this weekend was awesome. First blessing this weekend was that I won a giveaway on Instagram from EMRmarketing, I won a photo-shoot for two with the amazing “photonimi” who I’ve admired his work in the past. Although I won’t be in Nigeria for the shoot, I gifted it to my parents, its been a while since they took a professional photo together. Also this weekend, two of my friends had their birthdays, and I went out to celebrate with them. Greg had a party and Leonora had a birthday dinner. I posted some of the pictures on Instagram but I’d post it here again for all those who don’t use Instagram.
Sure you all are well, Have a blessed week ahead
Thank you for reading, speak soon….
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